Hey Maggie, Guess what...
I started gaining some weight this week. I am numbing. I am using sugar and wheat to cover the Muse. I am seeking my cowboy boot psyche, trying to reform the instrument of torture, so I can resume kicking myself...There is some part of me that desperately wants to hide and maintain status quo. This shows I am making progress, I think!
A dear friend was here for the afternoon. She came in with a carnelian pendant and told me she had no idea why, but she knew it was for me.
I know why. The meditation that introduced the Muse came through my very wounded orange chakra. And this carnelian is very orange. She is offering loving support.
So I am hiding, I am choosing slow-motion suicide through unhealthy foods...I am also coveting flowered boots and new glasses and maybe a haircut.
Feeling just a tad schizophrenic today!!
Love you,
Clare
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