oh my god, it's been quite the year. in a way i feel like we're all still wandering around, raw and lost. i guess it kind of bugs me that b2 is on the road, searching - for something - peace, i suppose, or home. and our attitude is just that this is the way he is. i get so frustrated with the shallow level of analysis and understanding we accept. i see it in the news. i see it in political arguments. i see it in the family, in us as well as in some cousins.
but i am less raw, and more importantly, less inside my own head. i have changed, at least inwardly. i see more possibilities in life, and maybe i'm less fearful. and despite my ongoing struggle, i think maybe i love and accept myself - at least a little more.
every family gets one - that kid with the light in their eye...the one everyone looks at, and expects -- something. i got one of them, too. and that child is a continuing delight.
not much going on here. or maybe, too much going on here. i'm not sleeping well, so no dreams, no deep thoughts, except of how to heal. i'm just trying to get through each day!
i hope you are enjoying this quiet down-time. it won't last. it never does!
smile,
clare
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