there will be no capital letters in tonight's post. my left hand is immobilized, i am exhausted. we had a baby on monday. mother and child are doing well. i spent last night in the hospital. that's more like it. i was able to ignore my fracture and tend someone else.
tomorrow, i have an appointment with an orthopedic surgeon. i will discover the next step.
last night, in the sort of dark in the hospital, with an aching wrist, i felt totally alone. i am tired. i am afraid.
today someone i know, not well, but whom i care about, told me she has unrelated tumors in her liver, breast and stomach, i believe. suddenly surgery doesn't seem so daunting.
things are going to be tough around here with two of us needing to accept help - although my daughter is good at asking for and accepting help.
i do understand your description of friends' dependence on your talent and willingness to work with youth. we rotate people off committees after a specific number of years to avoid burnout, and to be reminded what work is being done by friends. maybe you could suggest a similar policy.
zombie dreams - i am shocked! i am so far out of common culture, i still don't know what that is all about. the rest, the chaos, maybe that's just not being able to see what's next.
must sleep...much love...clare
i need a break...is that a pun?
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