Fight or Flight

So my stress increases...
I got little sleep last night.
My son#1 was furious about an impending group counseling session scheduled for today...
he was recommended for it and we agreed to it...
and then last evening he freaked...
I thought he was going to run away...it was fight or flight time...
I checked and rechecked the doors and windows...
I laid awake listening for any sound...
I prayed that he would just find peace and see the reasoning behind the therapy...
and then about 1:30 I went to his room to talk, yet again.
He swears he's not using any chemicals...
he challenges me to do drug testing...
he is crushed by my not trusting him...
and yet I've seen too many people lie to keep using chemicals...
I am so scared that I'll lose him...one way or the other.
He shared some information about his brother so I called his brother into the conversation
(no one was getting any sleep but husband)
We all talked and the truth began to flow...
we made so much progress that I woke husband up to hear it too.

Conversation worked...no one ran...no one is hiding...

I've spoken to my pediatrician and she is going to help with random tests that he agreed to if it keeps him out of therapy...
but he also understands that one positive test means therapeutic intervention.
I am just so tired...
so uncertain if I am doing the right thing...
am I being manipulated...
or am I responsibly handling this in a respectful manner?
I hope it is the second, but only time will tell.

Husband thanks me, repeatedly, for being proactive and handling the situation...he doesn't think he has abilities to handle this type of problem...
but I am floundering too...
I am scared as hell that I am going to make the wrong move and they'll be on a difficult path...
I am not an expert...
but I will fight like a mamma bear to protect these kids...
even if it is from their own poor choices.

I received another invitation to interview for a position...I have to come up with a 5 minute activity to convey a holistic idea. The position is a program specialist so the main responsibility is developing and presenting programs...it is an interesting company the Center for Holistic Change...the potential fascinates me...any ideas? I am thinking something on the interdependence of all beings and non beings or something to do with resilience and relationships...if you know of any Quaker sites that have activities I would appreciate your passing them on.

I hope that you are having a good day.
Love and Light,
Maggie

PS- When did they argue about being least favorite? Recently?