Another Day

Another day...
we officially finished baseball season...
my youngest lost in the state playoffs,
he is disappointed but has made some really good friends and had a great experience.
I told his coaches that I thought they did an exceptional job because each boy found a niche and was treated well...no favorites...no yelling or demeaning...it was enjoyable.

Son#1 is calmer...
but is pushing for more freedoms...
he has such a short memory...
I guess that is just part of what makes him unique.
He is eternally optimistic...
and takes advantage of my lack of recall.

I am still sleep deficient...
I lie awake waiting for something to happen...
someone to sneak out or something.
Last night I thought I heard the uncorking of a bottle of wine...
I am back in hypervigilant mode.

I think I am struggling with this for many reasons...
most of which are valid.
But I am definitely struggling because I can't control the outcomes.
I have to rely on my son's judgement and integrity.
I can only hope that he has learned well over the past 16+ years.

I am falling asleep...
I am going to grab a nap while it is quiet here.

Love and Light,
Maggie