wallowing and considering

Yay for traditions.  They are a big part of the way we define family.  We know we belong together because we celebrate or acknowledge the same ways...

I've been mulling over the Deepak Chopra quote you posted a few days ago.  A few days ago, when I felt the love and passion flowing through me, I felt so led.  I felt like I need to be doing something where I talk to people, where I model acceptance.  I thought about counseling, or practicing as a community herbalist or flower essence therapist.  I thought about writing, about the Me, too Foundation.  It all seemed possible and right.  I felt so...me.

But then I had to get up early for work.  And then, well I haven't bought any clothes for myself for over two years.  I went shopping today, and tried on a few garments, and hated them.  I fell back into my pit of self-loathing.  So I'm gonna wallow in the swamp for a few days and miss the sunshine.

I know I am that person, that flow of compassion.  I just don't know how to be that person in today's world.

But for me, it always comes back to healing and sharing - which kind of blends into educating.

It has been a long day.  How did the first day of school go?

Love to all of you...

Clare