being present

Hi Maggie,

I did send a card for S#4's birthday. I sent it today, on her birthday. I think Grammy lives on in me.  But I reached out and tried to send loving, supportive words.

I was thinking about family dynamics.  The boys seem more bonded to each others, and the girls seem to be more bonded to each other.  B#4 seems to be the agent that can go back and forth through each camp. 

Today we rolled down the hill in front of my house. And we went walking, spending a little time in the woods. I noticed the woods seem to make the babe a little nervous. But...but...we found acorns, and she loves acorns, just as much as my little girl on the other coast does.  I wish the two of them knew each other...

I am trying to play. I am trying to be present.  I am trying to go outside, and not think about email or reports or organizing anything.  I can think about that when I am alone and in front of the computer.  I want to go outside and be outside, and to be with the baby and to play.

I'm re -  learning...

Someone said something interesting to me today.  It was someone from a more socialist country than ours.  But - if the government offered enough social benefits so that people were not hungry, cold, homeless, completely unstable, religion would not have such a strong hold on people.  But if you are hungry, you follow whoever offers you food.

Hope all is well in your busy life.

Love and hugs from Clare