A quick update

Clare,

2 days to go…
today I spoke with the genetics counselor…
she recommends that all of the siblings and cousins have the CHEK2 gene evaluated.
I am going to get S#3 and B#4 to see her directly…
let me know if you want it checked.

I spoke with Mom last evening, B#2 &4 this afternoon, got a text from S#5…
what a day.
I also got messages from several friends…
and had one last reiki treatment prior to surgery.
I don't know what else to do to prepare, except relax.

I am doing well today…
I felt on the verge of tears for most of the day…
but it wasn't sadness…
I am not sure what the emotion is behind it.
I did have a little cry during the reiki work.
It relieved a lot of upper body tension.

Tomorrow I meet up with S#3, she is going to sit with me for a test that maps out my lymph nodes' drainage around the breast. I hope we have time to talk.

My older son is having a really hard time with all of this. His coping mechanism is to stay away from the house as much as possible…even when he's asked to stay home. I understand his reaction, but I really want to be able to talk  with him and spend time with him. But, every time I try he becomes angry and defensive…trying really hard to start a fight so that he has an excuse to stomp out of the house and leave. I really don't know what to do with him right now. So, try to hold him in the Light through all of this too.

Until tomorrow…
Love and Light,
Maggie