retreat tomorrow

I'm sorry you aren't well. I'm finally starting to feel more human. Although I overslept this morning…I never do that.

My sons made it through another marking period. Both are passing their courses at this point. I think that's a victory of some sort.

My oldest is home for a friend's bridal shower…I cannot believe her friends are getting married and having babies. She still sees it all in the 5 - 10 year plan for herself…but she is definitely grown up now. we went and got pizza tonight, it was fun…just relaxing with a glass of wine and a slice of pizza. I really enjoy spending time with her. My second is doing an interactive prom themed show over the next few weekends, and then a one act play at school in 2 weeks. I haven't seen much of her lately because of rehearsals.

My talk went well. I told students what my agency could do to support them as professionals. It's not a talk that I enjoy giving, but I like to meet people so that is a bonus.

I had a long talk with my boss today. The board hired an new director and none of us feels very secure that our positions are going to be continued. I asked if she knew what will happen when my 6 month contract is finished…
I feel as if I am "Last in First out"…
she said that she expects to be "First in First out" because her salary is highest.
Oh well, I still have my counseling position.
I had a strange week counseling…
people told me their secrets that they've been hiding from me for months…
this time period is doing really strange things to a lot of people. I hope that we all survive it.

I think that I'm undramatic because I was taught to avoid attention…
"You're to bee seen, not heard"
That's one quote that I remember well.
So, if I stay out of drama, let people walk over me, or serve everyone else's needs without addressing my own, then I will be successfully invisible…
or less than noticeable.

Husband and I are going to a Buddhist retreat tomorrow. It's an overview of the practices, beliefs, etc. I'm really looking forward to it. I'll let you know how it goes.

Love and Light beautiful sister,
Maggie