tough dilemma

Hi Claire,

I have been running for the past two days...sorry for neglecting our space here.

Friday was busy with errands that materialized as the day went on...
what looked like a quiet day was jammed pack with running around, complicated by a traffic accident that made me detour twice, taking even more time away.

Yesterday husband, daughter #1 and I went to a concert in Phila. This was a Christmas present and included a bus trip, tailgate and the concert. It was great. I sipped sangria through the afternoon and then heard 4 bands play. We saw Kacy Musgrave, Eli Young Band, Eric Church and Kenny Chesney. They were all good. They repeated a common theme throughout the concert...
follow your dreams and have a heart filled with gratitude.
Each expressed those ideas differently, but it was the message that I heard.

Yours is a tough dilemma...
do you accept assistance from an institution that you don't trust?
We all pay taxes to help people through tight spots...but it is true that each person should be paid a decent wage to allow them to live independently.
What are your other options?
a second job...
asking for rent from your daughter...
taking in a boarder...
requesting more clients from your present job...
writing and selling the work...
raising animals, like chicken to sell/eat the eggs or alpaca for their wool...
what sparks you???
Government assistance is a form of oppression and control. A friend of mine worked for the welfare office for years...she was one of a kind though...she did everything she could to maximize the benefits and worked hard to allow the clients to retain their dignity and self-worth.
With that being said...you need to move out of the violence frame of mind and see options so that you can proactively create the solutions.
Let me know if I can help you in any way...

I love the blossoming hand imagery... it describes the process well. My kids regained their strength and dexterity fairly quickly just by using it as best they could.

I will meet you here in cyber-space tomorrow. Hang in there...
Love and Light,
Maggie